It was corporate’s New Year Handshake yesterday and right after tapping my ID and getting the food stub, someone from HROD approached me and asked if she can record a video of me completing the statement in the cardboard she’s holding that says, “Hi, I’m _____. In 2019, I’m looking forward to _____.” As expected, I said no. *Introvert feels.
Walking back to my office, the statement runs through my head and made me feel like I don’t have a goal at all for 2019. It made me realize that it seems my great plan was actually to just go with the flow, laugh here, be happy there, go some places like the usual, eat and sleep, hope that I won’t cry or at least cry less, and all that. Just that.
In my previous blog, I said that 2018 is my best year yet. I don’t know if I’m being too complacent or it’s just really hard to raise another bar or set another milestone… or I’m just too lazy these days that the first week of the new year actually passed by just like an ordinary week – work and travel.
Mind you, while walking home last night, the statement popped again in my mind, which made me grab my 2019 CBTL planner and favourite frixion pen the moment I arrived. I started to write something, and after an hour, all I wrote was just the title above. Whew!
I know that this year, I’ll be facing a lot of life-changing moments and will be confronting critical decision-making processes. #ImScared | Maybe that’s the very reason why I don’t want to think and plan and have some goal, but to just go with the flow? However, thinking about the upcoming challenges, it’s more like I really need to prepare, right? (Don’t mind me, I’m talking to myself, actually.) – Right, Rhea Angeline?
Having said these, I think it’s not proper to finish the statement by looking forward to just being fearful and uncertain to what lies ahead, diba? I know that we really need to live each day of our lives by not being stuck of what happened yesterday and not worrying about the concerns of tomorrow, since each day has enough trouble of its own. Matthew 6:34 | But… I don’t know what I’m saying na. Haha. I really need to sit down and contemplate on this matter.
Anyways, how about you? Can you complete the above statement? Inspire me to write one through yours. ♡