Revelations, followed by frustrations, then realizations – with the end in mind to choose what’s best for everyone.
AWWW. I’ve been receiving information lately that caught my attention. Some almost made it hard for me to sleep, or go back to sleep after waking up from a shorter than the normal number of hours of my system. These facts (and assumptions) vary from work-related to personal and relationship matters. I have to admit that my mind was somehow shaken and consumed with thoughts and questions, which I find it difficult to process, and yeah, to accept. Some have already been answered while others remain undetermined. Mind-boggling.
ARGH. Frustration to self usually comes after I was informed of something. What have I done? Where did I go wrong? Why I was so naive and clueless? These questions, and many more self-annoyance experiences – asking myself and the people close to me if I’m doing something I should not be doing, and immediately stop it for damage control. That, if I can still control the harm I’ve caused. Yup, always pointing to me, since my only controllable item is none other than myself. This includes my thoughts, emotions and behaviors.
AHA! Good thing I was able to practice converting unexpected circumstances into “aha! moments” for years now. The awwws and the arghs would typically last only for a few days, maximum three. After examining my life and the way I deal people and issues, a decision whether to change something or a need to do an action would come up. Sometimes, it requires giving up some things. Sometimes, it results to heart-break. At the end of the process, the choice to remain happy and significant prevails.
Revelations, followed by frustrations, then realizations – with the end in mind to choose what’s best for everyone. And when I say everyone, it’s not just other people. It includes me. 💗